I now realize that I could NEVER stay at home full time (well unless Nate and I were Donald Trump loaded). I would go crazy and most likely become depressed. When I worked full time I was more active and motivated to get things done. I worked, cleaned, cooked, worked out at the gym almost every day, and still had time to hang with my husband, read, etc. Now, I'm lucky to put on actual "going out of the house" clothes! I'll shower of course (well most of the time) and then figure why dirty good clothes? I just throw on pajamas again; when I say pajamas I mean a t-shirt and lounge pants (not as bad!).
I am waiting to hear on an amazing opportunity for employment at a hospital close by! I hope to hear this week as tomorrow (Monday the 29th of December) I have my last phone chat session with a gentleman and my references were given. I hope that they will want to choose someone before the New Year holidays so start dates and pay can be discussed and I can get my groove back! <----If I'm offered the job.
Please tell me, how is it that when I have all the time in the world I do not want to do anything but when I have to have every piece of my life scheduled.... I am on top of it! Of course, I have been pulling my weight around the house by making sure it is always clean, the clothes are taken care of, grocery shopping, and lunches/dinners are alway good to go but I have to say... it just is not enough for me. I need to get out and I never thought I would say that. I was so thrilled at the thought of not having to work for a while and to enjoy the freedom. I had plans to read all my books, work out at the gym every day and be in the best shape of my life while keeping a fantastic house and cooking spectacular healthy meals for me and Nate. While half of that is happening, the other just isn't and I'd rather do it all + work because I KNOW that that is when I am truly at my best; when I need to have my calendar and my color coordinated system to keep me on track. I love being busy and being involved--it is just in my DNA and take that business away and I am just a slug :X
So everyone, keep your fingers crossed for me that I get this job... if I do not, that is ok! I'll apply for another and in the meantime try and just get SOMETHING that can get me out of the house and feeling useful until that perfect job comes along... well if that actually exists!
Cheers and motivation*